im idiot..

well ok~ i dunno why i will feel so upset today..

i can't even control my tears, even thought i kept asking myself
"stop crying idiot!!"

some frens of mine are envious about me
they said they wish to sing in cafe too
everyone encourage me, praise me, some of my best frens even feel proud of me

but y both of u always be the one who oppose me to sing, discourage me to do sth tat everyone encourage me to do so.. why?

well i dun think singing do spoil the image of being a teacher!
wat the hell u mean "风尘女子" (is this the must tat u said this to ur daughter?)
why should i always limit myself from many things since im a teacher?
damn it.. (yeah, i said "damn it", so what?)

i know u never proud of what i have done.. never..

Taiwan, i'm coming..

还剩下不到十四个小时
我就要离开麻坡了
现在是凌晨两点
很少看得到那么晚的我
竟然没和周公约会
因为现在的我
正在忙着收拾行李


除了基本应该带的日用品之外
还有口罩,干洗洗手液,还有各种各样的药
(对啦我承认我真的很kia si)


这次去台湾
要买的东西和礼物还真多
身边的朋友这边托买这个那边托买那个
如果来不及买的话就说声抱歉咯
因为我们的行程真的太赶了 ==


八个人一起去
竟然有六个人会带相机 （当然包括我咯）
可以想象得到大家多么期待这次的旅行
不想错过任何一个值得留恋的地方
毕竟，可以和大家一起去
真的很难得
平时不是你没空，就是他很忙
可能这种机会，下一次的话
不知在何年何月，才能再一次实现







现在已经两点五十分了
陪伴我一整晚的
是梁静如的“情歌”
很喜欢里面的一句





命运好幽默，让爱的人都沉默
一整个宇宙，换一颗红豆...”





听说，在中华文化的世界
红豆的意思，代表着爱情
我，觉得很感动，很感动...














Taiwan, i'm coming...
晚安，我的情歌。。。

H1N1

天啊~~~
竟然有中化生确定染上了A流感！！
而且还是我班的学生~~ ==''
在校长用广播宣布的那一刻
可以感觉到师生们的惊慌
就连我自己也超怕的~
因为每天都要进那一班
看来真的要戴口罩了 T.T
阿禰陀佛.. ==
希望大家平平安安的

没事！没事！

是踩到狗屎运吗？
为什么这几天台湾发生了那么多事？？
全球传染性的H1N1就够了
现在竟然还有变种的H2N3~~
然后又遇到台风，把酒店给吹倒了
然后又下大雨，让多个地方淹水！









然后身边的家人同事朋友阿猫阿狗们一直问我难道还要去吗
不怕出事吗不怕被活埋吗等等等等的鬼屁话
不要一直吓我啦~~~~~~~~~~~~~


































Ultraman ..
Spiderman ..
Superman ..
Ninja Turtle ..
Power Ranger ..
Transformer ..
Terminator ..
还有那个谁谁谁


快点出来拯救地球~~~~
我要顺顺利利的和我的死党们去游台湾啦！！


arrgh... 那些吓我的人，可恶叻。。

第三者

常有人说
幸福是得靠自己争取的
爱情
不是应该不互相勉强
不该由别人影响自己吗？



曾经很讨厌一些不了解我的
却要装着很了解的样子的人
然后再向他人
随意传达他们“认为”我会做的决定
或是我的想法
去误导别人



第三者看见的事实
就永远都只是海洋平静的表面
他们可能永远都不知道
海里暗潮汹涌
或是埋藏在深海里的专属秘密















“你可以自爱一点吗？”












妳知道以妳的身份来对我说这句话
心情有多沉重吗？








我。。。 受得起
不信 妳可以问我啊
不要每次都去用听回来的来做结论

还是 他们说的比我精彩
动作比我丰富
故事也比我的还要生动...?









如果是这样的话
那么下次 我会改进的..

25th of July

Well, i'm so relieved that i've finally finished all the irritating works!
Now what i've to do during this week is just be an invigilator
Being an invigilator is actually very simple
we just need to distribute the papers to everyone,
walk around the class (to check whether there is anyone cheat in the exam)
and collect the papers back when the bell rings~





so, the conclusion is,
i need not to teach,
n i juz can be like what my frens said in Hokkien
"eat snake"
waKaKa~~~~
















and that's also why i got the time to update my blog right now ^^
in fact, this blog is specially created for some friends who send somethings for me on my birthday..

thanks Mr water, cook me a western black pepper chop
(delicious ^^ but where is my mushroom soup and mashed potato?)

ok guess what!
well it's actually chocolate
though somebody told me it looks like a "pork luncheon meat"
(午餐肉) hahaha~~~
thanks Mr R anyway~

This chocolate birthday cake is prepared n baked by Mr E
Yummy.. arikato~

this is sent by Mr R too,
most of the friends said that it don't look like me
but somehow i think it did a little bit coz this is the former Jas (with straight hair)
so u think curly hair is more suitable for me huh?

a pair of earrings and a nice necklace
i like these very much..
Thanks Mr E again~

yeah, this is Big Apple!
of these all, i like the strawberry flavour the most
(Yum yum~)
and im truly dislike the green colour one - green tea
(Blek~~ like shit..)
don't kill me, Mr Fu~ haha thanks a lot ^^

Mr E sent me an elegant Gucci purse
it's very useful, thanks~ =)





this special gift is sent by Mr Cy
he is currently in UK
and he wrote "Happy Birthday" (i guess so)
on the sand at one of the beach in UK (hmm.. dun ask me the name =p)
hey ah gua Chia yee, ur handwriting is over "unique" le..
i can't see it clearly man~~

Thank Mr stage, sent me a bouquet of 99 handmade roses
it's very beautiful ^^

and for those who send me the wishes by sms and calling
especially Lee sin who is in Australia now,
王思巧 who is in Scotland ，
and Chia yee who is in UK,

I'm deeply touched when i received the calling from three of you!!!
I love you, my dearest friends.. muaks~

申请加薪的理由

今天在初三的某后段班教preposition（in, at, on, etc）的时候
有一题是这样写的



“The basketball match will be held _______ August.”



“ok class, which preposition do u think is the most suitable answer for this question? ”
“in!!”
“ok vy good~ can u tell me the reason why we hav to use "in" in this sentence?”
“因为月份，年份和季节必须要用in”


呜呜。。。我的努力终于有回报~ T.T
一时忽然兴起，就问他们


“你们懂August是几月吗？”
“八月”
“那你们懂一月到十二月怎样读和怎样spell吗？”
“懂！”（然而，我的眼睛已经瞄到有一些人不敢出声。。。）
“ok，很好，来~一月叫什么？”
“January”
“Good，how do u spell it?”
“J-A-N-U-A-R-Y” （黑板上就出现了January, 当二月要出现之前。。。）
“ok, A同学, 二月叫什么？” （开始点人。。。=='''）
“呃。。。” （可怜的A同学一直在冒汗）
“老师，二月是Febuary” （同学们开始互相帮忙）
“哎哟我没有问你们~~~不用紧，B同学，来告诉我三月叫什么？”
“好像是March”
“怎样spell?”
“M-A-R-C-H”（同学们又互相帮忙）
“C同学，四月呢？”


C同学站了起来，一直抓头傻笑。。。
无言。。。。。



我可以听见身旁的同学一直告诉他
“April，April~~~~”
“ok, 你告诉我怎样spell就好了”

















“A-P-P-L-E”
















班上笑声四起，
“同学，你们有刀吗？老师想自杀。。。”















校长，加薪啦~
做老师是很辛苦的。。。

味道

某一天 我突然想起了他
只因为 我闻到了一个熟悉的味道
一个 只属于他的味道。。。

这种感觉 交往过的人应该很了解吧
与其说相拥让人觉得幸福
其实 在相拥时闻到彼此熟悉的味道
应该才是最安心的吧？


人总是会变的
他离开我的时候
在我脑海出现的
只是一个变质的他



我坚信着 没有他
我还是能活得好好的



只是 我需要的是时间
我需要的是更多的工作
排得满满的时间表
压得我喘不过气
这就是我遗忘一个人的方法 （蠢？）
至少 在那么累的情况下
到了夜晚 不会失眠。。。
至少 我也不会像以前一样
总是流着泪的进入梦乡


当我已经忘了这个人
熟悉的气味 再度出现在我身边
我四处张望。。。
我认为 他应该是经过我身旁
我认为 他应该就在离我不远的地方
可是 人是那么的多。。。



又或许 他真的是站在了那人海之中。。。



很遗憾 我并没有找到他
就算看到了
会不会在眼前的 已是另一个幸福的画面
为什么一个气味
就能让当时的我如此失态。。。


味道 是一种很奇特的力量
紧紧地跟在每个人的身上
独一无二
稍不留意 就会上瘾
它不会被遗留在这世上
或是成为谁的遗物
而只能被死亡带走


如果气味 能收藏起来
那该有多好
至少在未来的某一天
家人 朋友 或是他
不幸地离开了我
在思念泛滥的时候
可以拿来闻一闻
让我能暂时地活在想象里
感觉是如此的靠近。。。

Magicians

what's the role of being a teacher?
i was wondering of this question for long time..
are we a machine to transfer knowledge to learners? that's all?
should teacher always set a good example in front of pupils?
some friends of mine said, "yeah, of course~"
but how good or how perfect can we be?

i've never thought that i'll be a teacher someday,
it's mostly because "teacher" isn't my first ambition..
well, the feeling of being a teacher is indescribable..
within these 1 n half year,
i cant deny that the seeds of happiness, anger, sorrow.. have grown deeply in my heart
they are not only come from pupils, but collegues as well..

it's just like what "the little prince" said,
"the most beautiful thing in the world is invisible"
i can't see that because i have lost my purity miserably..
as well as the grown-ups around me
they are clever at waving the magic sticks to make things better or even worse..




one of my friends tried to console me last few days,
"Jas, i tell u honestly, people gossiping or knifing back of u is because u have the market value"
okay, this is so-called "good friend"~~ hahaha..
thanks anyway..







yeah.. perhaps i should be more confident n optimistic
just ignore the magic and reckon that i'm valuable..
and definitely i'm not only the favourite of taxi drivers~~~
clear? students~

每日一笑：
今天下午睡觉的时候
调了六点十五分的闹钟
后来睡到一半的时候住在新山的xx就信息我问我
"y u din receive my calling juz now?"
结果我就把他的信息看成
"u hav to wake up at 6.15pm rite?" (ok我知道分别很大，但是我正处于昏迷状态 ==zZZ)
我就在想，这位仁兄还不错会提醒我差不多要醒了
我就很blur的回他
"yup~ thanks.."
过了半个钟，他问回我
"y u said thanks?"
此刻，我就开始在冒汗我到底刚刚信息了什么给他














唉... 人生嘛~偶尔blur blur应该可以被接受吧~~ 哈哈。。。

Rainy day..

It’s a quiet night,

I’m lying on bed and facing my laptop purposelessly

Since my dad wasn’t supporting me for my decision

Everything is so meaningless to me..

I can’t hide my disappointment, nor my depression

It’s kind of feeling like floating in the ocean of sadness..

Well, somebody might think that, “it isn’t a big deal, isn’t it?”

I try to think of that way too..

But I really don’t know why I am so easy to burst into tears tonight..

It's raining somewhere...

Choices..

In the recent days,

Some negative thinking keeps coming into my mind,

Most of the time,

And I can feel that, the feeling of loneliness was so strong

I know I long for something which are meaningful to my life

And absolutely this is what I am confusing for days and nights.

Alright.. As everyone knows that,

Life is full of choices,

It’s like something that we have to choose, choose, and choose, all over again

It’s not coming once in the blue moon

But it stays with us all the time (I mean, if you’ve noticed that.)

Well, for me,

Choices can be hateful sometimes

As after we choose it

We might reckon that “shit man! I should have chosen another one”

But I bet human being is always inconsistent in many ways (surely that’s included me)

Normally they will request for it once they dun have any choices

Hmm.. I’m facing some choices too

But I’ve no idea what should I do with the choices

I did receive and accept various kinds of comments of my friends’

And clearly I understand it shouldn’t be too much influent my decision

Should I choose to further studies or maintain the same?

Arrgh..