Magicians

what's the role of being a teacher?
i was wondering of this question for long time..
are we a machine to transfer knowledge to learners? that's all?
should teacher always set a good example in front of pupils?
some friends of mine said, "yeah, of course~"
but how good or how perfect can we be?

i've never thought that i'll be a teacher someday,
it's mostly because "teacher" isn't my first ambition..
well, the feeling of being a teacher is indescribable..
within these 1 n half year,
i cant deny that the seeds of happiness, anger, sorrow.. have grown deeply in my heart
they are not only come from pupils, but collegues as well..

it's just like what "the little prince" said,
"the most beautiful thing in the world is invisible"
i can't see that because i have lost my purity miserably..
as well as the grown-ups around me
they are clever at waving the magic sticks to make things better or even worse..




one of my friends tried to console me last few days,
"Jas, i tell u honestly, people gossiping or knifing back of u is because u have the market value"
okay, this is so-called "good friend"~~ hahaha..
thanks anyway..







yeah.. perhaps i should be more confident n optimistic
just ignore the magic and reckon that i'm valuable..
and definitely i'm not only the favourite of taxi drivers~~~
clear? students~

每日一笑：
今天下午睡觉的时候
调了六点十五分的闹钟
后来睡到一半的时候住在新山的xx就信息我问我
"y u din receive my calling juz now?"
结果我就把他的信息看成
"u hav to wake up at 6.15pm rite?" (ok我知道分别很大，但是我正处于昏迷状态 ==zZZ)
我就在想，这位仁兄还不错会提醒我差不多要醒了
我就很blur的回他
"yup~ thanks.."
过了半个钟，他问回我
"y u said thanks?"
此刻，我就开始在冒汗我到底刚刚信息了什么给他














唉... 人生嘛~偶尔blur blur应该可以被接受吧~~ 哈哈。。。

Rainy day..

It’s a quiet night,

I’m lying on bed and facing my laptop purposelessly

Since my dad wasn’t supporting me for my decision

Everything is so meaningless to me..

I can’t hide my disappointment, nor my depression

It’s kind of feeling like floating in the ocean of sadness..

Well, somebody might think that, “it isn’t a big deal, isn’t it?”

I try to think of that way too..

But I really don’t know why I am so easy to burst into tears tonight..

It's raining somewhere...

Choices..

In the recent days,

Some negative thinking keeps coming into my mind,

Most of the time,

And I can feel that, the feeling of loneliness was so strong

I know I long for something which are meaningful to my life

And absolutely this is what I am confusing for days and nights.

Alright.. As everyone knows that,

Life is full of choices,

It’s like something that we have to choose, choose, and choose, all over again

It’s not coming once in the blue moon

But it stays with us all the time (I mean, if you’ve noticed that.)

Well, for me,

Choices can be hateful sometimes

As after we choose it

We might reckon that “shit man! I should have chosen another one”

But I bet human being is always inconsistent in many ways (surely that’s included me)

Normally they will request for it once they dun have any choices

Hmm.. I’m facing some choices too

But I’ve no idea what should I do with the choices

I did receive and accept various kinds of comments of my friends’

And clearly I understand it shouldn’t be too much influent my decision

Should I choose to further studies or maintain the same?

Arrgh..